In my last entry I was in a very dark place in my grief. I was peeling back another layer
and it was so painful. Finally, just this weekend I feel like I am on the other side of this
phase in my grief. I have come to terms with the depth of my loss and all of the
secondary losses that have come along with it. I am coming back to life. Last night I
had a fun, relaxing date with my husband. We talked and enjoyed each otherʼs
company. I didnʼt have to force myself to engage, it came out so naturally. Today was
the first day for almost a month that I felt free to worship God at church. I didnʼt have
the overwhelming anguish of grief weighing me down.
I have motivation again. I want to get back on a schedule. I want to clean and organize
my house. The light at the end of the tunnel is getting closer and therefore getting
brighter. I can almost feel the warmth of it against my skin. Praise the Lord for being
my fortress in my time of retreat! Praise the Lord for not turning away even though I
tried! Praise the Lord for His strength to guide me back from the dark valley I have been
in!
Today I feel like me again.
